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Last Night was...

I had a dream last night, a colorful dream. A dream larger in magnitude, heavier than space. I found myself on the ground, smiling, and laughing after the fall. I really don't know what happened before my fall, but I know it was a victorious fight, hence the smile on my face. Moreover, I have discovered, reached and landed on new land in my life. Call me Christopher! I have struggled throughout my life searching for a destined answer to my evolving question. Why me? Throughout my high school and younger years, I always felt like the outcast; small young, bold and fragile. I didn't understand why but I knew eventually it would shine through. Now I understand that my outlandish thinkings and bold yet mild expressions was just the ART in me. I didn't understand why I could never make any friends, but it was just the ART in me. I could never grasp the idea of why he was looking at me so hard, but it was simply the ART in me. It shaped, held, laughed and scold me. I've come to find myself half way prepared for life. Lately, I have been on this journey to end an old life. I have succeeded by making new friends, attending a new college, beginning a new and blooming job, established some standard morals and found new love within myself. Im half way there, yet half way lost. Even though I have landed on this new piece of rock, I am lost. Unknown to its territories or boundaries. So here I go, and I am ready to take on the blows. Last night was wonderful, brilliant and a nightmare.Beyond my episode, I must post about a friend I met; a thug, strong in tone and aggressive in mind. My impression was to refrain myself and to hold posture. I left my guard up from the kid (which I yet have to continue), so I drew the unintended picture of "hard to get". Verbally declined and often reserved, I left this thug puzzled. We met up one day, hit the movies and called it friendship. The conversation between me and the thug went from sensual to sophisticated; sex in the 3rd degree to the unstoppable epidemic in Africa. You can never judge a book by its cover. Now the feelings grow larger for this heavy hearted mind with two daughters and a college degree. What should I do?

posted by Liber8Lyph @ 7:12 AM