I can see now...
It took me all this time to realize what the hell my main problem was. My life is in trambles. I keep wondering why im so shy, have no life, make no friends, find a man etc. I am too damn picky! I came to this conclusion when my friend bought me some hot chocolate and when i got it the first thing i said was where is the whipped cream. Then she bought me some ice cream and the first thing i said was, this is nasty. She bought me some Iced tea, that i asked for, and the first thing I said was eww you put ice in it. Of course I thanked her for getting me the stuff, but it was always attached to a negative statement.Its so very hard to please me. Im shy because im picky about when i should talk, after who i should speak, or what I should say instead of just saying it. I can't find any friends because I'm so picky about how they dress or if they are a non smoker or not, what shoes they wear, what stores they shop at, the music they listen to, and the list goes on. I can't find a man because Im so picky about how white his teeth are, how agressive he isn't or how tall he is. My father or even my closest friends don't know what to get me for christmas or my birthday because im so picky about what they get me. I swear, this holiday I am writing a list and sending it to everyone. My picky ass is getting something that I like. LOL! I am overwhelmed at this moment. Soul searching, and Im picky my soul away. Picky about how I soul search. Is there a term for this disease......?
posted by Liber8Lyph @ 10:00 PM
2 Comments:
I don't think its a disease. I think friends would say I am picky.. but i say, "I know what i want." Sometimes, it is about never settling. but we must know when we have to compromise and when we don't. I'm grateful for a lot of stuff, but i still want more. I feel ya man!
Nah, there's no term for it. I used to be like that though, not that there's any issue with your personality. But, I had to realize that it was crucial for me to start making a few amendments to my paradigm of life, myself, and others. After my paradigm shift, life seemed better!
Coming Into Reality,
-Jamal
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