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Love death...

I feel like im always talkin about someone that I admire from a far distance. I never get enough courage to say something to them until it is too late. And he is so strong, so determined, so full of life; this brother is nice. Five from thirty, he fills the room with smiles and common smirks. He glows with success and rides life like a homaged cowboy. I thought this dude was the kind i was searching for all along. It he was. he embodied what I have been dreaming about; strong in mind, college educated, witty. The perfection of man at the time, but i could never tell him how i felt. His presences made me nervous, and I couldn't be myself. Something told me to keep my gaurd up cause this dude could hurt me. Knowing that I felt so heavy towards him, I didn't want to get caught up in him then have my heart pulled apart, broken, stepped on and then swept in the closet. I didnt want to take that risk so i held my position and acted uninterested. Well I tried. I could never tell if he was feeling me, becasue when we did meet it would be this akward, intra-seperate (im not sure if im feeling you) feeling. However this kat was fresh! with a smile like heaven, he defined smooth in so many ways, from the way he walked to the tone of his voice. Take a picture and look at it for days. I was really feeling this dude, but i kept tellin myself not to fall in. We would have made the sexiest couple in 2005. The truth! me savy and he sexy; the combination would create an explosion. I came to realize that I envied this man. Wanted to be more of him and less like me. His personality blew me away. He was, what I wished to be. Ready for the world at large, this gentleman took the world in his arms. Beautiful------Then he died.

posted by Liber8Lyph @ 10:55 PM