2007...
It has been quite a long time...I must admit. I had nothing to write about simply because my life has been on hiatus! Struggling to find myself, making this school thing work and finding this thing we once called happiness is all I've been up to. I remember being a kid, and I had not one worry in the world. The dirt pie I made taste just like chocolate and we lost Saturdays soccer game, but who really cares. Life was so good! Now I find myself worrying about everything. I worry about my future the most and its beginning to tare me apart. 2007 will be a good year as I close so my chapters of my life. Lately I have been feeling very unaccomplished. I know that I am young, but I feel like I have been doing the same shit for too damn long. I cannot wait for my career to escalate, live on my own, get my puppy Dexter, vacation in Peru and Senegal, host a party, laugh with my friends, make some money, and love myself. This road to what I consider happiness is dark and cold and without any shoes, I trench down its dirt embedded trail.Happy Holidays
This year's holiday endeavors have not been so rewarding. I didn't get much but a few sweaters. Gift cards and some hugs! When all I wanted for Christmas was some attention, a friend, a thoughtfully conversation, a vacation, a story, a destination, a road trip, a blanket of smiles, a surprise, a hobby...I wanted my life to come back home. My mother asked to borrow some money this holiday, instead of asking me how I was doing in school or can I see some of your work, or what I'd like for Christmas. I went over her house early xmas morning and had to leave within 20 mins because I can't stand her husband. There's this evil essence in which he embodies. After I left my mother's I went back home to find it empty and quiet since my dad was out with his girlfriend somewhere. I later catch a ride with my dad to my grandmothers house whom asks me everyday when I am going back to school....So again I tell her the same thing " In two weeks". After listening to my grandfather joke around and my aunt boast about her new career ventures, we head back home to find my niece and brother bearing gifts. I think this was the best part of my Christmas because it felt like home again. However the night ended short as my brother rushed off to my mothers house. I feel like my brother likes it more over there than to be in this house of bad memories. Anyway, it was around 6:30pm then....I had nothing to do, or anyone to visit so I decided to lay in my bed and sleep. How exciting, and I think New Year's eve will be even worse. Happy New Year!
posted by Liber8Lyph @ 6:29 PM
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