Welcome back...
It has been a long time since my last post, and I appologize greatly for that. There has been much change in my life, yet im still the same kid from down the block. I still rock pink graphic tees and chucks, my skin is still caramel and chewy, and I still spend to much time waiting for some mircle to make me happy. Moreover, my life is looking brighter ( even though it wasn't that dark to begin with). I recently recieved my BFA, closing another chapter in my life. My Senior year was an awsome learning experience. I found a new mind, a new makings and a new man. Graduated magna cum laude (exciting) and recieved an award for best senior thesis. I hate to talk about myself like this, but I am truly blessed and talented when I acknowledge it. Anyway, this new man in my life makes me happy (at times). HE, cordilant, thoughtful, smart, social and real, makes me happy. I never thought that I could feel this way for someone again, but it happened. I realized that I loved him when we were on a trip with some collegues in New Orleans and I began to get jealous of other people when they were getting his attention. I wanted to cry because he was playing spin the bottle and hanging out with other people and not me, and still today I get upset when someone takes his time away from me (like when I went to visit him last night and he continued to answer his phone more than 15 times). It is so strange, but I love this boy. He makes me happy. And if anyone can deal with my bitching and complaining for 10 months, than he must love me just as much. I gotta keep this one for awhile. However, there has been times where I just wanted to give up because I dont love myself. I still streching to find some happiness within myself. Deep down, in some foreign region of my soul lays happiness and I am still reaching for it. I black out at him when I should be fighting myself for being so selfish and childish. Well enough about him and back to me. So now graduated and in love, I am job-less. However, there is this great void that needs to be filled before I gear up and lock down with any career goal of mine. I want to do something sustaining, fulfilling and grants memories and plenty of great stories. I want to travel to Senegal of take a internship in Canada. I need to do this in order to fill a little bit closer to my dream. So if anyone knows of any great opportunity, please inform me.
posted by Liber8Lyph @ 8:21 PM
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